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When I was a kid I used to have depersonalization episodes a lot, where I would just all of a sudden not be able to believe that I was experiencing reality as it was happening. I would mentally ask myself 'is this now? is this real?' for a few seconds (or minutes), and sometimes I would repeat it out loud until I was satisfied that it was, so that I could keep walking or get out of bed or whatever. I had that happen into maybe middle school, but sometimes I have felt like it's about to happen again and I had to start doing something active or talk a lot to kind of 'pre-prove' to myself that everything is currently happening and I'm not watching it as a movie or dream.

Last night I experienced some rather vivid hallucinations feeling-type, for awhile. I drank a beer, but nothing else. It was kind of unsettling, but maybe it's like what lucid dreaming's supposed to feel like.

The weather here is getting positively tolerable now. I can actually turn off the heater in the morning on the drive to work. It's so nice not to have that dry heat in my face for some time.

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mrcougar
Mar. 10th, 2009 01:17 am (UTC)
itsnotrealitsnotrealITSNOTREAL!!!!

sounds like someone needs to lay off the coffee or maybe start having more?

fuck it,your just fucked in the head,join us,its okay as I'm not only the president of the club but a member as well.
starlick
Mar. 10th, 2009 01:50 am (UTC)
*hands up* I think I'm president of the NZ chapter of said club.

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